Vortex of no clock!

Time has never been my a strength. It's amazing to me how long things actually take. I always wonder where the time would go? I tell my husband that I am a free spirited.

As a sucesssful business owner I have made time work for me. I figured out that I would run about 10 minutes off schedule. So I set all my clocks about 10 minutes ahead. Over time I would remember that I did this so I would end up being late. I pretty much told my friends and clients that I run about 5-10 minutes late, so that they wouldn't think that I forgot about them.

But a couple of months ago I went to a class that I really wanted to take. I had been late for this class about 10 minutes. When I go there I realized that the teacher was not going to let me into the class. I felt really horrible. I realized that I really didn't want to continue playing this dance of being late and feeling stressed out. What I realized is that I was addicted to being late. It made me feel imporant. Is it funny when you learn something about your self it always comes back and bites you right in the Gut. I had noticed that my lower back and stomach was hurting after this incident. My clients, family, friends all love and accept me for who I am. I have a successful business over a decade of people I have been mentored, taught, guided, empowered to find their own power center. But I want more for myself and for them as well. So I have made a decision that I will do everything in my power not to be late. Not only that I will be at least on time or 15 -30 minutes early. This has been really fun and what I have learned that I was creating my own suffering and spreading it out.

My friends , clients family, like this change not because of how it makes them feel but they see that I am more calm, centered. Plus an added bonus I am learning I am not the only one that runs late! Pretty funny since I am early or on time other people run late as well. But I don't judge them because I have been there before. I have compassion for them and try to accomadate them with love and kindness. This has been very enlightening to me. This time vortex warp blends into other parts of my life. Now I am learning about boundaries. I have always been a very relaxed, casual person. But now that I am watching the clock I have a tightness in my neck and throat area. Love being a meditaor because I get to feel think about how my body is feeling.

Recently I had to end a couple of bartering relationships because of the time vortex warp. I felt that the respect was not there anymore so I ended the relationship with loving kindness.

No one was hurt nothing fell apart the relationship had change. It made sense to both of us. We are still friends and can work together. We still buy services from each other or not.

I hope this was entertaining for you and that you learned that it's okay to give yourself permission to stop certain behaviors that are not serving you and everyone around you. Change is good , yes it's scary but like most wise people that have lived on the earth longer than both you and I.

“You’ll learn, as you get older, that rules are made to be broken. Be bold enough to live life on your terms, and never, ever apologize for it. Go against the grain, refuse to conform, take the road less traveled instead of the well-beaten path. Laugh in the face of adversity, and leap before you look. Dance as though EVERYBODY is watching. March to the beat of your own drummer. And stubbornly refuse to fit in.” Mandy Hale

 

Empower your self, Stretch see what happens!

Michele Julian, Intuitive Coach